What do you hate about yourself?

[Arrow]

Well God-like superpowers aside,

I hate the fact that I have skin conditions. Acne is a minor one, shouldn't have it though, but I also have psoriasis, which causes itchy scaling on my scalp and looks ugly. That's not the only place I have it either, and it is very unsightly. I wish it would go away, all of it.

Ah, psoriasis. I have that. Back in middle school and high school I had huge, red bolches of it EVERYWHERE. I looked like a walking, flaking rash. The medical treatment I got helped, but no where near enough, and I gave up on it and accepted it. As I've gotten older, its dimished significantly - my face, hands and feet are mostly clear, and you have to look carefully to find it on my torso. The legs and arms still have a bunch of bolches, and my scalp still has spots. But my attitude is "Yes, I have psoriasis. If you want to make an issue of it, you can go fuck yourself you shallow asswipe"; most people accept/ignore it, and those that don't are useless assholes anyway.

[Mrs Kendall]

My jealousy and the fact that I jump to conclusions and assume almost everybody is out to hurt me somehow. It sucks ass.

[Sam Or I]

Well, lets start with the physical.

I am a fur ball. I have to much body hair. I wish I could be an inch or 2 taller. 10-15 lbs heavier. (And like all males, I wish I had a slightly bigger penis, despite me being average.). Otherwise I need to get out and work out, but I am not in bad shape. I am getting a few grey hairs. I do not mind my physical appearance, just the few vanity flaws I pointed out. (People say I remind them of Mathew Brodrick.) Oh, and the biggest physical flaw, I would get rid of my colorblindness.

Mentally and emotionally, this is where I run into my catch-22. I love myself, and who I am. I hate how others react to me (meaning the females of the world). I have like zero chrisma. I am slightly passive, and I like listening. I present an aura of not being confidient, but I know my abilities. I will say I don't know if I don't. (Not a sign of confidence to the outside, but I think it takes a stronger person to admit they don't know, or they may loose, than one who thinks he is the greatest.) I am a horrible salesman, and could not sell somebody a glass of water in the desert. But I do not want to be good at that. I can be a little apathetic, but not with thing that are important to me. I just don't care about the little things that bug most people. I also tend to be a recluse, I can easily withdraw from a situation.

The one thing I would change emotionally would be the ability to "like", or get a crush on someone. After my ex ripped my heart out, I have not been able to feel that way about a female (even her) again......... Its been a good 2 years, and I find girls hot, but none I would want to be a keeper.

So for the most part I like who I am, and would not change that much. (In the real world that is, if we could go to extremes, hell I would not look too much bigger and be benching 500 lbs, while calling out chess moves to beat deep blue, while flirting with super models, but hey, I am talking the real world.)

[Vertigo1]

What do I hate about myself? My complete inability to gain weight/mass, which means I keep my toothpick figure no matter how much I exercise or eat. I fucking HATE my uber high metabolism.

[Lord Zentei]

I have the same problem, the cause being clinical depression. Plus I suffer from neurofibromatosis, which doesn't help.

Also, I feel I am a goddamn pushover.

For those who don't know what nf is: Link

A rare mutation with a 1/8000 probability of occouring. Bah.

[The Grim Squeaker]

What do I hate about myself? My complete inability to gain weight/mass, which means I keep my toothpick figure no matter how much I exercise or eat. I fucking HATE my uber high metabolism.

Fuck you , Have you any idea what it's like to be overweight->fat-obese-pudgy for 7 years even with a diet?
Just joking, pick of the evolutionary seed for you eh? Have you tried changing the amount of carbohydrates or protein?

[Soontir C'boath]

My jealousy and the fact that I jump to conclusions and assume almost everybody is out to hurt me somehow. It sucks ass.

Well, you have acknowledged that you have this problem. You should start to try and catch yourself quickly when you do jump.

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I hate myself that I have never exercise in which leads to me being overweight. I hate myself for never running as I get tired easily by just running a few streets as always. I hate that all these years I've abused my body to the point when it might never recover.

I hate that I only started reading a lot now than back then. I missed so many wonderful books because of watching television and wandering on-line pointlessly, but I'm glad I am starting now.

I hate that I can't control myself rationally when my mom annoys the hell out of me.

I hate that despite my knowing that I won't kill myself, I still have suicidal tendencies.

I hate that I let past memories dredge up and fuck me up emotionally in the present.

I hate that I am starting to think the english words I use start to look weird.

Most of all, I hate my lost of self-control, intelligence and dignity as I seemingly have lost my edge in math. I use to be good in math but now the basic shit that I could easily have done years ago, I can't fucking do without hardship now!

[Mrs Kendall]

I'm trying, believe me I'm trying. It's been going on so long though that I just find that it passes me by until I get a complaint from my husband.

It mostly happens when he makes a comment about some girl walking on the side of the road, I jump to conclusions and assume he wants to fuck her cause he mentioned that her shirt is see through. Yet when I'm in a good mood and it's not that time of the month I can joke about it with him and actually enjoy looking at sexy girls with him.

It sucks. I'm finding it really hard to stop myself but I'm trying.

It happens because I've been burned so many times in my past by my exes, who either left me for another woman or cheated on me.

Thanks for your advice though.

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[Coyote]

I have a problem dealing with relationships-- I have always assumed that something bad was going to happen and so I don't invest the trust and effort needed to improve things. I spend most of a relationship "waiting for the other shoe to drop".

It's odd because while I'm in the relationship I am loyal and supportive, I just don't give all.

And, while I am in good physical shape overall, I have a slight belly pudge, about 8 pounds, I can never seem to get rid of even when I am at the peak of physical fitness.

[Julhelm]

I dislike not being able to gain weight regardless of how much I excercise or eat.
I also dislike my inability to fully commit to anything.
Finally I also dislike how I'm seemingly incapable of landing a job.

[Crazedwraith]

I'm inarticulate, grumpy, easily irratible.

I have an inabillity to do anything that involves talking to someone I don't know until I absolutly have no choice and it has to be done. (For exanple paying money into the bank, to get them off my ass for Young Enterprise Comapny debt )