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Day 320, Morning, Cape Cod
Packer waited on the beach for Miles and Kevin to show up. He'd seen them awake a little earlier, but they'd wanted to have a bit to eat, first. And why not? How awkward could a post-sex breakfast be if you couldn't speak your erstwhile lover's language?
Packer chuckled to himself. Saying that Miles and Kevin might get some wasn't an outright guarantee--rather, it was an extrapolation. Sex was a huge topic of conversation amongst the men: how best to get your wife pregnant, what positions felt good for you, what felt good for her, and so on. Packer was, of course, party to many such bull sessions, but to his surprise, his contributions hadn't introduced anything radically new to the tribe--besides kissing, that is. Oral sex was old hat, though there were innumerable arguments about how best to practice it.
At any rate, since sex was on the men's minds, Packer assumed--correctly--that a similar amount of discussion went on among the women. Nara had confirmed this when he'd asked a month or so ago, and she'd also mentioned about how she was badgered about Packer's skill. They wanted to know everything. At first, he'd been embarrassed by the thought of Nara blabbing about their sex life to strangers, but he quickly caught himself: there were no strangers here. What's more, having a good sex life helped the entire tribe; more sex meant more babies, of course, but more good sex meant happier people.
Packer then spotted Miles and Kevin picking their way out of the marshes and stepping onto the beach proper. "Morning, studs!" Packer called out. Miles responded with a thumbs' up.
"I think I'm in love," Miles crooned when they met. "Oh, sweet Jesus, what a night that was! I thought I'd never get some again!" Kevin, for his part, was quiet, distant.
Packer said, "Well, I'm glad you had fun."
"Fun?!" Miles laughed. "I swear, I must've eaten her pussy for an hour and a half! I played it like a damn harmonica!" He swatted Packer on the chest playfully. "I think I'm gonna come back here with you and Nara next spring!"
Packer grinned, then turned to Kevin. "What's the matter, don't kiss and tell?"
Kevin snapped to. "No, it's just...well, who the hell else is gonna know? Last night was my first time."
Packer and Miles exchanged a look. "Well," Miles roared in a pleasant way, "welcome to the club! How do you feel?"
"Honestly?" Miles and Packer nodded, though Packer only nodded a single time and had a suppress a laugh at Miles' bobbing head. Kevin went on: "I can't believe I spent so much time thinking about it. Now that it's done, I'm like, 'give me all those years of my life that I spent fretting about it back!' I'm just worried," he looked at Packer, "that I didn't measure up, you know?"
Packer stuck his bottom lip out thoughtfully. "Did you tell her it was your first time? By the way, who did you end up with again? I was kinda distracted after the Sing Story ended."
And what a hit the Sing Story had been. With three actors, the climactic showdown between Skywalker, Vader, and the Emperor(Great Elder) had taken on an all new dimension. Now, when Packer had writhed on the ground, screaming Father, please! at an impassive Miles while Kevin mimicked Force Lightning, the audience went ballistic, jumping up and down, gesturing wildly and bellowing at Miles to do something!
And Miles apparently had a flair for the dramatic, because he had apparently known exactly how long to pause before delivering a solid, pulled punch to Kevin. As they had discussed before the performance, Kevin crumpled to the ground, and Packer and Miles picked him up and threw him over the bench, which stood for the edge of the shaft inside the Death Star (known to the tribe, of course, as the village-eating Death Turtle, with the shaft being the Death Turtle's throat). They had tried to deposit Kevin gently, but they didn't try too hard. Then came the great escape from the mouth of the Death Turtle, Vader's tearful redemption (Miles and Kevin spoke their lines in English, of course), and Skywalker's escape aboard his three-winged falcon.
Their audience loved it even more than when Packer had told it the first time, many weeks ago. They howled with approval, and immediately afterwards, Miles and Kevin were fairly mobbed by girls trying to get their attention. It was no longer a question of if they were getting laid, it was a matter of when and with whom they'd be spending the night.
"Dera," Kevin answered. "It was Dera. I mean, I tried to tell her, but...well, I dunno, she probably knew. I'm sure I was shaking like a leaf. She didn't seem too nervous. I don't think this was her first time."
"No, probably not," Packer said idly. They were now strolling down the beach. Some fishermen were putting their boats in the water, nets and spears ready. They waved; Packer and his friends waved back. "Like I said, sex is a skill to be learned, and learned through practice. And it appears that once you hit fourteen or so, you start practicing."
"But surely, there must be accidents!" Kevin said. "I mean, babies."
"There are, and don't call me Shirley." Packer made the joke automatically, and he ignored it as much as Kevin and Miles did. "They practice serial monogamy; going from one pairing to another. If someone gets knocked up, it's pretty easy to figure out who the daddy is. There's no pressure to marry, though. There is no such thing as an illegitimate child out here. Kids are kids. But anyway, how was it?"
"Good," Kevin said, "I mean, real good. I was so nervous that I didn't even blow my load right away, like they say that you do your first time. But I'm sure it wasn't very good for her."
"It's OK," Miles said. "Everyone is terrible at it their first time out. Hell, you're terrible at it your hundreth time. Packer's right. It's a skill, and it needs to be practiced. That's why I spent so much time munching Yerna's rug last night. I wanted to make sure I hadn't forgotten how." He grinned.
"Yeah, we can still see the pubes in your teeth, ya fuckin' wank," Packer fired back in a chummy way.
Miles laughed. "I could honestly care less if there were."
"Yeah, how did you...you know, deal with all that hair?" Kevin asked. He then turned to Packer. "How do you do it?"
Packer shrugged. "Kevin, if you could see how goddamn hairy my nuts are right now, you'd understand that I'm in no position to complain."
"Right on," Miles said. "Besides, I kinda liked it. Reminded my of my dad's old porno tapes from back in the day. Very retro. You just gotta go with the flow, man."
They were then quiet for a while, watching the gentle swells of Cape Cod Bay catch the sunlight. "Well, I guess we should stop talking about fun stuff," Packer said. "Let's do some planning."
"Yeah," Kevin said. "Why don't you guys come back with us now? We can make it to Madaket harbor by nightfall, right Miles?"
"Sure," Miles confirmed. "We'll be a little cramped in the boat, but the weather's perfect. Wind'll be good, too. And timing is just right. Things are starting to get a little flaky. You come back now, Packer, you can really do some damage."
"No," Packer replied instantly and firmly. "For one, I don't want to cause damage. I never did. The harvest is more important. Let that occur in relative harmony. And further, it's not the right time. I told you that the village kind of disbands for the winter, right? Well, that doesn't happen until autumn hits, and that's not gonna be for a couple weeks yet. Maybe longer. It's been a hot summer on Cape Cod."
"It's been nice on Nantucket," Miles said. "Couple of hot nights, but nothing too bad."
"At any rate," Packer continued, "I want the harvest in and done before I even think about showing up. I want people to know that, whatever else happens, there's enough food to last the winter. Agreed?"
"Fine by me," Miles said.
"We're wondering how much of that food is gonna come our way on Martha's Vineyard," Kevin said a bit unhappily. "We only have a small crop. But, you make sense. After the harvest it'll be."
"Alright," Packer said. "So, we're not leaving until my family has left. From what I've gotten out of them, they leave sometime in the middle of October, though it might be later. Once they're on their way, Nara and I can go."
"Hmm, well," Miles said. "It's the 15th now. Middle of October's thirty days away...tack on ten more to be safe...October 25th sound good? The harvest will definitely be in by then."
"Sounds good," Packer said.
"You'll probably beat the Eagle back, too," Kevin added. "They were planning on being back the first of November or thereabouts, last I heard. Trying to time it so they landed on Arrival Day. Oh, that's officially a holiday, by the way."
"Yippee," Packer muttered.
"So, I gotta ask what the plan is," Miles interjected. "Jason's gonna want to know. Probably begin some preparations of this or that sort. Start marshaling the troops."
Packer frowned. Uh oh. "Well, I have some ideas," he began, "but I really need to see things firsthand. As more immediate concerns go, I want to sail in under the cover of darkness, preferably in the dead of night. We go straight to the hospital after that--Nara and myself, that is. If you can arrange an escort to get us from the harbor to the hospital, that'd be even better."
Kevin cocked his head. "Wait, is she sick or something?"
"Or something," Packer confirmed. "She's pregnant. That's the main reason I'm bringing her; I don't want her giving birth to my son or daughter in a freezing cave somewhere in the Massachusetts hinterland."
For what seemed like the umpteenth time, Kevin and Miles were both agog. Kevin sputtered, "Wow, uh, I didn't...congratulations, Packer!"
"Yeah, well done, old man!" Miles said, clapping Packer on his shoulder.
"Thanks, guys. Do keep that under wraps. Actually, don't even tell anyone about Nara. If word gets out that I'm bringing a native woman back with me, the Council is gonna be slipping on its collective drool in its zeal to nab me. I think, if they think I'm coming back alone, they'll probably look to capture me in their own time--probably wait for me to make the first move."
"I dunno," Kevin began. "I would think they're gonna be real interested in you."
"Oh, no doubt," Packer said. "But if they show interest in me, it means that I have leverage over them. I have something that they want: information, and shitton of it. It's better to let me simmer for a few days, see what I do. They're probably hoping that I start up rallies and strikes and shit, so they can go to war and take me down, once and for all."
"Are you going to do that?" Miles asked.
"Don't know," Packer lied. "Like I said, I have to see conditions on the ground before I decide. Don't worry. I got contingencies." He shook his head. "Anyway. October 25th. We'll be on the western side at the mouth of the inlet you traveled up. Look for our signal fire starting around noonish. That's solar noon, not whatever the hell time it is you're keeping. It's going to be the two of us, a few bags of our stuff, and our weapons. I want to leave about an hour before sunset and travel through the night, weather permitting. Miles, you think you can get us back to Nantucket in the darkness?"
Miles grunted. "I won't lie, it's a bigger risk than I'd like to take. Nantucket is as goddamn dark as the ocean until you're right on top of it. They don't use the lighthouse unless there's a reason to. What I'm hoping is that they'll be using it to potentially guide the Eagle, in case it's coming back early. Failing that, if the weather's good, I can do it. As long as the currents stay predictable, we just need to point ourselves southish."
"Good," Packer said. "Alright, well, you guys are free to stay here as long as you like, or at least as long as you think is prudent. Mi tribe es su tribe." He then grinned. "Though, I'm fairly sure they're gonna want another Sing Story from us tonight."
Day 173, Night, Nantucket
"That fucking prick!" Kaley Richards howled as she threw open the door to her room. She knew that it was officially quiet hours at the Point Breeze Hotel, and she also knew that she didn't give two shits if the whole goddamn floor heard her.
Her roommate, who was up studying manpower tables or productivity trends or some other insufferable collection of statistics, looked up from the pile of papers on her desk. Her name was Hannah Montross, and she was a sensible, plain, bespectacled girl of twenty-two who hailed from Vancouver back in the future.
"Date didn't go well?" Hannah asked Kaley in her pleasant Western Canadian accent(which was actually remarkably similar to Kaley's Denver accent).
Kaley responded by growling inarticulately. She couldn't even remember when she'd last been this mad. She then made several false starts at explaining: "I...he...that asshole said...he's gonna...I'll be in the shower!"
Hannah's eyes widened a bit at this, but Kaley turned and stomped off to the bathroom, stripping off her clothes as she went. The boiler that granted the Point Breeze Hotel hot water was only turned on between the hours of five and nine AM, and, large boilers being large, that meant that the optimum time to show was about between eight and noon. It was almost ten hours past that optimum window, but Kaley didn't care. She felt filthy.
Of course, she started caring once the cold water hit her. "Eeeeyow!" she couldn't help but screech. She then scrubbed as diligently as she could, given her shaking hands, and emerged a scant two minutes later, shivering in her bath towel, but a little less at the mercy of her emotions. Hannah was still going over table after table of some awful spreadsheet or another.
Kaley sighed as she changed into her pajamas to ward off the chill settling into her. The weather was getting warmer, but spring wasn't quite there yet. Snow could fall on Nantucket as late as Memorial Day, apparently. Hannah ceased taking notes and put her pencil down.
"Date didn't go well?" she repeated.
Kaley choked on a laugh. "You know," she began as she crawled under the blankets of her bed, "the thing that really pisses me off is that he waited until after we did it to tell me. He knew. He knew I'd flip a shit, and he...he must've just wanted to get some one last time."
"Okay, I'll bite." Hannah took off her glasses and rubbed the bridge of her nose. "What did James tell you?"
"He told me what's really happening to Alferd Packer," she said, her anger starting to build again. "Well, OK, he didn't come right out and say it, but you'd have to be pretty dense not to figure it out from what he said.
"He told me that they're sending him off to die tomorrow, that the whole "first contact with the natives" bit is a ploy to get him out there. Then," her lip quivered with fury, as she fought to control her voice, "he fucking says it was his plan to do it that way! He said that Packer was dangerous, and that he was instrumental in getting rid of him. He fucking bragged about it to me."
Hannah leaned back. "Well, I could've told you that that whole Packer story sounded fishy," she said. "I mean, who sends just one guy out on such an important mission? I just assumed that I hadn't heard the whole story."
"No one has," Kaley griped, "because the real story is that they're killing him!" She suddenly threw off her blankets and went to her closet half.
"What are you doing?" Hannah asked from behind her.
"Something," she replied. "Anything. I don't know. I have to get out. I have to talk to Packer. Get him to--"
"Uh, Kales?" That was Hannah's nickname for her. Some of the other girls called her Kay. "You know that you can't leave the hotel without an escort, right? And further, you don't even know where Packer lives, or if they're even keeping him at ho--"
"Oh, that I do know. James says that Packer's been at his house, under observation by the Watch."
"All the more reason not to go." Hannah now placed a hand on Kaley's shoulder and turned her. She was tall--nearly six feet. "Kales, please. This is nuts. You need to relax."
"I can't! Not when this is my fault!" There. She said it; it was out in the open. She was GAC--Guilty As Charged.
"Your fault? Why? Because of what happened at the Sausage Fest?" Hannah sat at the edge of Kaley's bed. "Look, you can't help being attracted to the people you're attracted to. It's not your fault that Packer had--probably still has--some separation issues with his wife back in the future. You also can't help that he felt compelled to protect your feelings, anymore than you can expect to stop yourself from being attracted to James--"
"Eugh!" she snarled. "Don't even say his name. If I never see that fucker again, it'll be too soon."
Hannah waited though this patiently. "The point is, Packer is his own man. What, do you think that if it went down differently, and you guys hooked up at the Sausage Fest, that he never would've pushed for that charter of his?"
"I don't know!" Kaley whined. "Maybe! Maybe his priorities would've been different! Maybe he wouldn't have been so reckless. But you know what? You're right. Fuck all that. I'm still going." Now fully dressed, she turned to go the door.
Hannah grabbed her arm. "Kales, stop. You don't need to get involved. It's not your fault; why should you--"
"Because," Kaley answered in a kind of muted shriek, "he's a nice guy and he doesn't deserve this. He doesn't deserve to die alone in the wilderness. OK, maybe he needs to be punished or whatever. Shouldn't the punishment fit his crime?"
Hannah let go. "Perhaps. I don't know. But it still won't work. You won't make it past the Watch."
"I don't intend to," she said with a grin. "Shining Armor is on call tonight."
The rule of interaction between the Watch and the ladies at Point Breeze was simple: barring emergencies, The Watch didn't speak to the women, and the women didn't speak to the Watch. Speech, however, was not the only means of communication. Interactions could be as simple as allowing someone to pass in front of you. A wave. A smile. A nod. Holding a door to allow someone in or out.
Since the girls didn't know the names of any of the Watch, they'd invented nicknames. The guy with the revolver on his belt they sometimes saw was called Old West. Not because he was old, but because his weapon looked anachronistic to them, like he'd stepped out of a Western and misplaced his cowboy hat.
Body Odor was the man who never seemed to smell quite right. Even when he showed up for his shift looking obviously freshly bathed, he still smelled funny. Poor guy.
Shining Armor, on the other hand, was the embodiment of chivalry. Even when his fellow members of the Watch gave him dirty looks for doing it, he always nodded silently to a passing girl. He held doors open for them. If he'd had the flowers, he'd probably pass out a rose to every girl he'd seen. He'd even gone missing for six weeks or so, presumably because he was being disciplined for obeying the letter of the law, not the spirit. But, a few weeks ago, he started showing up again for shifts. Usually the graveyard shift, because so few girls were out and about then, so it was nearly impossible for him to act like a gentleman to anything other than the furniture in the lobby. Kaley only saw him because of her visits with James.
Quickly and with purpose, Kaley slipped out of her room. The door closed silently behind her. The hallway was dimly lit and deserted. She moved quickly, the luxurious padded carpet under her feet muffling her footfalls. As she walked, she frantically tried to think of what to do. Should she flirt with Shining Armor? She frowned at the thought, because flirting brought back memories of James--no, his new name would be Captain Asshole.
Brain, make a note of that, she thought.
She could pout. That might get her somewhere. A few quiet sobs, a crocodile tear...but wait. She was asking this guy to commit a serious breech of orders or protocol or whatever. The odds were essentially 100% that he'd be off the Watch, permanently. Would they punish him like they punished Packer? No, she couldn't manipulate someone into that!
She slipped down the stars to the lobby quietly, making sure the door didn't click shut--that click was loud as hell and would rouse attention. You know what? she thought suddenly. I'll just be honest with him. I want to see Packer before he leaves. Take me to his house right now. Shining Armor didn't need to know that she was going there to try to rescue him, to tell him that she knew what the Council was up to and that, together, they could stop it. She was a bit fuzzy on exactly how they could stop it, but she was sure there was some way. Maybe Packer already had a plan; he just needed little help from her.
In the lobby, Shining Armor was sitting in one of the lounge chairs, his jackbooted feet up on the coffee table in front of it. He saw her, scrambled to his feet, then stopped, a perplexed look on his face. Kaley walked right up to him; he was tall and well-built, probably not much older than her.
"Hi," she said. "I don't know if you know my name already, but it's Kaley. I don't know your name, but we call you Shining Armor around here, because you're a nice guy." He actually smiled softly at this. "Listen, I'm sure you know that Al Packer is shipping out tomorrow. Well, I need to go see him. I don't know where he lives, though, I don't have an escort. I need you to take me there." It was only after she finished speaking that she noted how urgent her tone was.
Shining Armor did his best to keep his face calm, but she saw turmoil in his eyes. She decided to add, "It's not that kind of visit. I'm not a slut. He's my friend, and he's a good guy and...he's scared. I'm sure he is. I want to let him know that he's not alone."
She waited. The storm in his eyes continued. He was struggling with something, but Kaley couldn't tell what.
Finally, he unclipped his radio and spoke into it. "Lee?"
A burst of static, then a tinny, "Copy, Bill."
"I gotta knock off. I'm not feeling good. Think it might be the flu. Don't want to get the birdies sick. Cover the lobby for me?" He glanced up Kaley and winked. She grinned at him.
The tinny voice replied, "Roger. If you want, one of the taxis is out front. Might's well drive yourself over to the hospital, get something for the fever."
"Good idea, Lee. See you back at the barracks." He put his radio back on his belt and looked at her. "I've been wanting to quit the Watch for months," he said to Kaley. "I guess I was looking for a good enough reason to do it." He gestured towards the door. "Shall we?"
The street in front of the Point Breeze Hotel was deserted and pitch dark. Half a dozen Frankencars(as the girls called them) lined the road, and one of them was idling. Shining Armor(no, his name is Bill, Kaley suddenly thought) went over to it, used a plastic kids' beach shovel to scoop several pounds of woodchips into some kind of hopper, then went around to the passenger's side.
"Here you go," he said, opening the door for her.
And despite everything, she blushed a little as she got in.
Once they were underway, Bill was silent, leaving Kaley a little time to think. It had been James' mood that had made Kaley suspicious. He'd been so damn happy the last two weeks. Nothing could shake his mood, not even when Kaley had got her period(they weren't expressly trying to get pregnant, but up until two hours ago, Kaley had thought that it'd be perfectly fine if they did). Everything had been great--he'd been extra witty, extra nice, extra funny--in short, he'd been on Cloud Nine, and Kaley was perfectly content to have him remain there.
But then...tonight, his pillow talk had been weird. He was smiling, but his tone was all wrong. Almost savage. I tell you, babe, he'd said, It's a good thing we're getting rid of Packer. We all dodged a hell of a bullet with him.
What do you mean, getting rid? she'd asked, immediately suspicious. He's going to test the waters, see if he can find the natives. Establish a dialogue. That's what--
Honey, he stroked her side, things aren't always what they seem. Think. If we wanted to test the waters, would we really send a single man out, instead of an armored column?
Back in the car, Kaley shivered. The worst part of it all was how goddamn happy he'd been. If he'd been miserable instead, or even solemn...but no. It wouldn't have been authentic misery. He was happy that Packer was going away, and he was proud of his role.
Her hand curled up into a fist suddenly. She wished she'd slapped him. Kicked him in the balls. Anything. As it was, she didn't even get off a good final insult, a real zinger to make him wilt. But you can do worse, she thought with a small, savage grin. You can blacklist him. He's never getting laid again.
"Here we are, Kaley," Bill said. He stopped the car. "Wait here. I've gotta bluff my way past the guys watching his house."
"Wait," she said. "Are you gonna get in trouble for this?"
"Absolutely," Bill replied. "I'll be spending some time out on Muskeget, I'd wager. Maybe Martha's Vineyard. But it's OK. I can't do this anymore." He suddenly leaned against the steering wheel. "A week ago, I had to brain a sixteen year old kid who was trying to break into the hospital's dispensary. He was trying to get some antibiotics for a sore on his leg. He came at my partner like a caged lion, or something. I dropped him with one good hit. He hasn't woken up yet. They don't know if he will.
"I'm not cut out for this work," he went on, now leaning back in his seat. "I thought I could hack it. I can't. I was always my happiest," he looked at her with a smile, "when I was on duty at your place. It's calm there. Peaceful.
"Anyway!" the word exploded out of him. "I gotta go talk to the other guys. I'm still on the Watch for the moment, so..." and he got out of the car. Sometime later, he entered the cone of light cast by the headlamps, beckoning her. She got out, and within two minutes, was on the front stoop of Packer's house, with Bill waiting a few steps down.
"You sure he's safe?" Bill asked.
"I'm sure," Kaley said over her shoulder. Heart pounding, she knocked on the door.
She could hear, faintly, Packer approaching his door. It opened a crack, then flew open the rest of the way. "Kaley?" the figure in the darkened foyer said.
"Hi," Kaley said. "Can I come in?"
Packer's confusion was obvious, even in the dark. He looked over her shoulder to Bill. She didn't know if he nodded or gave some sort of high sign, but Packer shrugged and said, "Yeah, sure. Please."
Before the Arrival, Kaley was a sophomore at the University of Colorado at Boulder. Her then boyfriend was a senior who lived a few blocks north of Arapahoe in a studio apartment. Whenever she went over there, she marveled at how he could stand to live in such a mess. Cords snaked everywhere, be they from computers, video game consoles, or TVs. His clothes were piled on top of all of his furniture; she'd even once looked in his dresser, and the drawers were actually empty.
Now, as she entered Packer's living room, she saw the same chaos. It looked like he slept on the couch. The furniture was askew. The coffee table was covered with all sorts of papers, books, and unidentifiable detritus.
Must be a bachelor thing, she found herself thinking.
Packer removed an acoustic guitar that had been resting on an easy chair. "Uh, please, sit," he said in a nervous tone. He replaced the guitar on a stand in the corner of the room. Now why wouldn't he have just put in there in the first place? she wondered.
After banking the hearth fire with a couple of hefty chunks of wood, he sat on the couch. "So," he began in a pleasant way, "what are doing in my neck of the woods?"
Kaley frowned. Now that the fire was throwing out more light, she could see Packer's face clearly. He was smiling, but there was something wrong with his smile.
"Well," she began uncertainly...then the words flooded out of her. "James told me. About the real reason for your trip. Well, he didn't explain every last little detail, but he said enough. Like how they're trying to get rid of you by sending you off to Cape Cod! Packer, we have to do something. We have to stop them from sending you. You'll get killed!"
And as she spoke, she watched Packer's face. At intervals, it looked like someone was shutting the lights off upstairs, then turning them back on a few seconds later. He took entirely too long to reply: "Kaley, it's alright. I appreciate the concern. But you didn't need to come all the way out here to warn me of anything. I know!"
"You do?"
"Yes. I know it's dangerous," Packer went on with a chipper tone. "But it's important, you know. For the community. We need to establish a relationship with the natives somehow. Listen, I'm nervous. But at the same time, I'm honored that the Council asked me to do it. Me! Can you imagine?" He looked incredibly satisfied with himself, though there was a kind of hollowness to his expression.
Kaley looked at him with horror. Did they fuckin' brainwash him or something? I thought you could only do that on TV! She tried again. "Packer, it's not an honor! What the hell are you talking about? That's just their cover story. James told me! He said you're being disposed of because of the stuff you did with the charter!"
"The charter?" Packer's face clouded up momentarily. "Oh, well, it was just an idea I had. The Council certainly knows more about things like that than I do. They probably had a good reason for rejecting the idea." It cleared again. "But it is really magnanimous of them to offer me this job after we butted heads, so to speak. It's quite an honor."
Kaley felt chilly dread creeping up her spine. He was parroting...but what? Or whom? Was he told to say these things? And he sounded so...convinced! If it wasn't for that weird look on his face, she'd probably have believed what he was saying.
It was then that she remembered something that James had said while he was boasting. He'd literally swaggered around the room. She didn't understand it at first, but it took on a terrible clarity here.
We fucking broke him, James had said, a predatory, satisfied smile on his face. I broke him. He's nothing but an obedient shell of a man now. Then he'd laughed.
"Oh..." she said quietly. "Oh God. He was right. They did break you."
Packer simply looked at her, the same dumb smile haphazardly attached to his face. The vacant look in his eyes. He gave no indication that he heard her, and said, "It's OK. I admit, I got a bit of a nervous stomach, but who wouldn't? Still, I'm excited to go. What an honor!"
Kaley felt like either screaming or crying; she wasn't sure which. They'd destroyed him--at least, everything that made him Packer. All that was left was something that looked and sounded like Packer. Gone was the witty grin, the kind eyes, the slightly goofy, but altogether charming, good-natured bearing.
And tomorrow, after a boat ride to Cape Cod, they would finish the job by destroying the rest of him.
Something on the table gleamed in the firelight and caught her eye. "Is that...is that a cell phone?"
"Huh?" Packer looked down. "Oh, yeah! It's mine. It came back with me. I, uh, keep it with me for sentimental reasons."
"Like your wedding ring?" Quickly, frantically, a fragment of an idea was forming in her head. She didn't know what had happened, but maybe there was a bit of the real Packer in there somewhere. Or did it even work like that? Kaley didn't know, but she could try...
"Yeah," he replied. He looked nearly normal now, if a little sad. "I have a bunch of pictures on the phone. I look at them from time to time. The pictures of my wife, mostly," he added.
"Can you show me?" she asked.
The first hint of real emotion crossed Packer's face. "Well, uh, sure." He reached on and flipped open his phone, pressing the requisite buttons without even looking at it. Kaley moved over to join him on the couch.
"Here she is," Packer said. Kaley studied the image: a cute, bookish brunette was on the screen, holding up a martini glass with one hand and smartly flipping the bird with another.
"It's not the most flattering picture, but that's not what camera phones are for," Packer explained.
"Oh, I understand," Kaley said. "She really pretty, Packer. What did she do?"
"She's a programmer," Packer said. "Worked on web application stuff, mainly. Java, with a little ASP. Her work's environment is weird. She even does DBA stuff, because her company's to cheap to hire a dedicated one." Kaley understood none of this, but instead noted how remarkably animated his face had become. She was getting somewhere. She had to be.
"You guys have a good marriage?" Kaley asked.
"Absolutely," Packer said. "It's funny how some of the guys who were married at work complained about their wives. They'd invariably stop at the bar after work to delay their arrival as much as possible. I couldn't wait to get home to see her every day. I didn't even like going on trips without her, you know. I don't sleep well by myself. Well, now I do, I guess."
He showed her another picture. His wife, buttoned up in a poofy coat, red-cheeked and grinning, two snowballs in one hand and a blurry third hovering above her other. "We were shoveling our sidewalk last winter," he said with a smile. "Well, it started like that. It turned into a snowball fight."
And on it went. Kaley asked questions, but she mainly let Packer do the talking, explaining each picture as it came up. She didn't know how long they stayed like that, but she saw at least sixty different pictures. As it went, though, the hope built in Kaley's chest, because by the end, Packer was speaking with all of his old flair, gesturing happily, his words peppered with strange witticisms.
"You guys sound like you're great together," Kaley said, having noted that he spoke of her exclusively in the present tense.
"I think so," Packer said. "It's never perfect, but I don't expect it to be. I just try to be a good man for her, and hope she thinks enough of me to do the same."
They were quiet for a minute. Kaley thought, OK, all or nothing. "Packer, you can't go tomorrow. You need to stay on Nantucket. People need you here! Let someone else go in your stead. You're too important to die out there!"
Instantly, the animation in Packer's face vanished, replaced by that creepy smile and dead eyes. I blew it! she thought with horror.
"Hey, don't worry about it," Packer said. "I'll be fine. Really. It may be a bit risky, but nothing ventured, nothing gained, right?" Packer winked at her, and she felt like screaming again. Instead, she said nothing.
"Well, I should probably try to grab some shuteye." Packer reached around, found a wire, and plugged his phone into it. "Gotta keep it charged up," he said with gaiety. "Thanks for coming by. It was nice to see you before I left."
I don't think there was anything I could've done, she thought miserably. James was right. They did break him. She rose, and so did he. "Oh, hey!" He started rummaging around on his coffee table, eventually producing an envelope.
"I wrote you this," he said. "Here."
She took it. The envelope felt like it had just a few pages in it. A letter? For her? "What's it say?" she asked, realizing after she said it how dumb that sounded.
"You know, I honestly don't recall," Packer said. "Huh. Funny what you forget. Anyway, I wasn't sure how to get it to you, but here you are, so, here you go."
When they were at the door, she turned to face him. "Packer, I don't...I don't know if you're really still in there or what, but I want to say that I'm sorry. Maybe if I hadn't been so direct, or maybe if we'd never met...well, anyway." There was a lump in her throat that was making it hard to talk. "It was very nice to know you. It's reassuring that there are decent guys out there, even in this fucked up world of ours."
He looked genuinely troubled again, but Kaley wasn't going to bother to try to snap him out of it. She leaned forward, and he backed up a step. "It's not that kind of kiss," she said, and he allowed her to plant one on his stubbly cheek, as did he allow her to hug him.
She separated from him, but still held his hands, and she looked into his confused eyes. "I don't know what's worse," she said. "If you stay like this, or if you snap out of it. Goodbye, Packer."
She stepped out of the house and onto the stoop. Bill was waiting for her, and there two other members of the Watch out in the street, leaning up against one of their cars. On the car ride back to the hotel, Kaley's mind turned towards her immediate future. Maybe she'd be punished for leaving. Or for getting Bill into trouble. She found that she didn't care. Maybe she couldn't have saved Packer(she was increasingly sure of this), but at least she'd tried.
At least she'd be able to live with herself, even after he was long dead.
Day 359, Afternoon, Cape Cod
The sun had taken on its shallow, autumn angle. Even at high noon, it cast long shadows. Earlier in the fall, such shadows were, in their way, charming. Now, though, it meant that winter was fast approaching. Still, the proximity to the ocean kept the chill out of autumn, even on October 25th.
Packer threw another pine bough on the signal fire. His hands were sticky with pine sap, but the smoke column was worth it. There'd be no chance that they were missed. The weather was even on their side--it was sunny, and the wind was present, but it wasn't too strong as to scatter the smoke too quickly.
Packer walked back to the shelter. He and Nara had built it when they'd arrived yesterday, using pine boughs and straight branches to create a lean-to. Combined with their blankets and hides, it was an effective wind shelter, but Packer hoped he wouldn't have to see how waterproof it was.
Their camp was just out of sight of the water, in a small clearing. The signal fire was on the beach proper, but it didn't need a ton of attention. Packer entered the clearing to see Nara roasting a skewered fish over their camp fire.
That was the one item he'd wished they'd given him when they dumped him out here: fishing wire. Fishing via spear was unebelievably hard, and Packer had not done it successfully even once in the entire six months he'd been out here.
"The fish smells good," Packer said in English. Now that they were away from the village, Packer was trying to acclimate Nara's ears as much as possible to it.
Nara looked up. "Yes, it will be ready for eating soon." She gestured towards the beach. "I see a lot of smoke. Do you think your friends will see it?"
Packer nodded. "I hope so. I also hope they get here soon."
"Maybe they would like some fish," Nara said was a grin. They were both wearing hide pants, and she was wearing a long-sleeved hide shirt. Packer had a similar one, but he was accustomed to the cooler temperatures now, so he was wearing a deerskin vest, instead. Of course, he wore his seashell marriage necklace, along with a pair of seashell bracelets that Nara had made him over the summer. The only modern aspect to his outfit were his hiking boots, which had proved to be tougher than just about anything else he'd had with him.
After Miles and Kevin had left the village, Packer decided to prepare his body. For what? He wasn't sure, but he wanted to return looking as fit and healthy as he could. To that end, he exercised every day, doing simple calisthenics, as well as things like push-ups and crunches. Where everyone else was indulging in the fall harvest, Packer kept his portions sensible and healthy. He also soaked up as much of the waning autumn sun as he could, maintaining as much of his summer tan as possible. By the end of it, considering the lack of gym equipment available, he felt himself to look pretty good.
Packer sat by Nara and watched the fish cook. "Do you miss your family?" he asked her.
"Yes," she replied. "But I am not sad. I will see them in the spring. And I have you."
Saying goodbye to Nara's family had been hard, and it had taken Packer completely by surprise how hard it was. Only when their departure was imminent did he realize how much he wanted to stay with them, and how much it hurt to see them go. And then, when Chottekan took Nara's hand and passed it to Packer, tears in his eyes...well, of course Packer blubbered like a little kid.
But if filled him with resolve. No harm was coming to Nara. That was his new main directive. Get her to Nantucket, keep her happy and healthy throughout the winter, get the baby delivered safely, keep the baby healthy, and get his family back to the village some time in the spring. Everything else took a backseat to that, and would be dealt with secondarily.
"I miss your family, too," Packer said. "Although, I should say that I miss my family, right?"
Nara smiled at him. "Of course. They are your family."
They then ate the fish, which was succulent and smoky. They'd brought from the village plenty of pemmican and other dried meat, and there were lots of wild edibles along the way to gather and snack on. Still, it was better to not dip into those reserves unless necessary, and the fish was big and filled them both up.
After it was done, Packer stood. "I will go check the fire again." he said. When he made it to the beach, though, he saw it. It was still a good half mile out, but it was unmistakably a modern sailboat!
Packer almost let out a whoop of joy, but he realized that he needed to be careful. There was no way to tell who was aboard, and while he thought it unlikely that there was a sniper from the Watch aiming for the beach, ready to take him out, he saw no need to chance it. He quickly added more pine boughs to the signal fire and disappeared back into the woods.
"The boat is almost here," he said to Nara. "We'll wait until they land here."
It wasn't long. Packer heard stomping; the crunching of dead leaves and twigs. Then, "Hellooooo there, Packer!" It was Miles Jameson, without a doubt.
"Hey, Miles! Over here!" Soon, Miles burst into the clearing. "Hey guys! Anybody order a pizza?" He laughed and gave Packer a hug. "Hello, Nara," he said pleasantly, but respectfully.
"It is nice to see you again, Miles," Nara said with a smile of her own. "Is Kevin here?"
"Nope, he's on Martha's Vineyard," he said. "We thought it best for him to stay, in case someone was watching him. I don't think our plan was discovered, but you never know. I brought one of my buddies along to help me with the boat. You don't mind, right?"
"Not at all," Packer said. "I'm glad you were able to make it."
"Me too," Miles said earnestly. "Let's get you guys loaded up, huh? Not a ton of daylight left, so we'll want to shove off soon. There will be plenty of time to catch up on the ride back. It's gonna be an all-nighter for sure."
Packer stood, hefting his spear--it was almost eight feet long and its point was the blade of his now-dismantled hunting knife(the grip of which now held a stone blade). "Read my mind, buddy. Let's rock."
And about an hour later, they were on their way, sailing across the the Atlantic Ocean which was afire with the golden light of an autumn sunset.
Almost six months to the day after he left, Alferd Packer was coming back to Nantucket.
"There is a principle which is a bar against all information, which is proof against all arguments and which cannot fail to keep a man in everlasting ignorance--that principle is contempt prior to investigation." -Herbert Spencer
"Against stupidity the gods themselves contend in vain." - Schiller, Die Jungfrau von Orleans, III vi.
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