havokeff wrote:
See, to me, I equate the teeth smile with laughter. To me a nice toothy smile seems more genuine. To me a big pearly white show means you really mean it. I'm not saying be 70's Joker, but let 'em show.
You're talking to someone who to express humour frequently slaps her own thigh or the table rather than actually open her mouth. Or simply doubles up shaking, without actually making a noise but with a mirthful tight-lipped little grin on my face. I have to force any laughter at all.
It's certainly due to my history of being abused as a child and total lack of personal interaction before the past few years, and it's not related to autism (I'm actually quite extroverted in person, and a natural storyteller)--I'm an extremely good read on others--but I had to lie about myself for so long that it was psychologically internalized to the point where though I do emote normally, I don't do it in ways a stranger would immediately recognize, and most actual emotional expresses more in line with human behavioural norms on my part are entirely fake, simply forced to add more understanding from others. Particularly laughter.
Anyway, the smile to me seems to hint that I know something you don't--and most of the time when interacting with people, I do, as I'm far more intelligent than they are.